I am sorry that you have been suffering like this for so long. You are describing some of the classic signs of depression. The depressed moods, tearfulness, change in appetite are all common signs of depression. The most common sign is what we call anhedonia. This is the loss of pleasure in activities that used to give you pleasure. If you used to love doing something such as riding a bike in the summer, but now find no joy in that activity, then you are likely very depressed.
Seeing a therapist
can be quite helpful, but it is not a replacement for antidepressant medication. Today's antidepressants work wonders in people's lives and have only a few minor side effects. The best antidepressant for you depends largely on your own past medical history, and your doctor's personal preference.
I suggest that you schedule an appointment to see a psychiatrist
. He or she will be able to discuss your psychiatric history and you depression more in depth than any other type of physician. in addition, these doctor's know the antidepressant medication world better than anyone. Keep in mind that it takes more than a month for most of these medications to work. Good luck.